mymarygold - i have to come to the conclusion

that the winey music really has some talent
because i was in the idiotic roommates are today
and her winey gross music i could not tolerate
and id think because she is a music major she wouldnt like that shit
but i guess that does mean anything she still listens to that crap
and it makes me feel better about the winey emo music i occasionally listen to
who really cares in the long run
we should just do what we like
i really wish people will live their lives that way
do things for themselves and no one else
i hate people that change their opinion because of a boyfriend or really anyone
it drives me crazy!!!!
why dont they have any spine!!!!!!
(i switched to more of my winey music!!)
hell ya
crank it
wah ahhahahah
i may be losing it slightly
but that is okay because i stay true to my self
wow i should start a movement
and none of the "love is the movement"
because yes i do support it
but tons of people that wear the shirts because it is cool
why cant people support things with true motives
besides self gain and making themselves look cooler
gosh darn people in society

i also hate narrow minded people
especially people who say that they give the other side a chance
and then go back to their side and say they gave it a chance
hell no that isnt giving it a chance
but he is out of her life and i am glad
things will definitely change
i just dislike that i didnt hear it from her
but maybe she doesnt want to talk
i just found out in a creepy way
haa. oh internet
i despise thee
but how i love thee too
i am crazy
i cant wait for this weekend
it was almost a plan gone wrong
but katie saved the day
and ew i just referred to myself in third person
reminds me of felicia
and it annoyed me when she did it

I CANT TAKE ANOTHER SEMESTER OF SEEING HER CRACK
it shows all the time and it is so hard not to notice it!!!
i just glance over and BAM! there it is
ick ick ick
and it is hugeeeeeee crack
it may be more acceptable if she was a skinny little thing
but she is far far far far from that
maybe it is because she is constantly eating
..uhh that was a little harsh and i regret it
but not enough regret to take it back
hahahahahahahahhaha
um yes.
but say no to crack please!
um the one thing i dont understand
is i am sure sean(boyfriend) sees it a lot
wouldnt he be grossed out too!!!!!!!??????????
unless that it some creepy turn on for him?
ehhh doubtful
i feel bad for the kid for having a smelly crack showing girlfriend
ahhahhahaBAHhahahahahah

um i am in such a rambleish mood
but everyone is doing stuff
i need to get myself a guy
hahah i sound like an odd person
because i have a few boys that would like nothing more then for me to be their girlfriend

boy # one. thinks that it cant happen because we already dated once.
(i wouldnt date him again anyways)

boy # two. kind of is a liar but it really cute
(but he is shallow and wants in my pants)
((hahahahhaa prior comment is funny))

boy # three. really wants in my pants
(but he is back at home and every girl would hate me)
((i dont understand what these boys see))

boy # four. not sure that he likes me still
(it was a while ago but i was takne)
((but i saw him over break and he liked to stare))
(((maybe he stared because im funny looking)))
((((but he is in a band (not that it ever stopped me before) but ya))))

i just want a boy besides them
a boy with honest intentions
well maybe just semi-honest intentions
who knows i just need a different one
because i know all four of those ones arent the one
but then how do i ever know

sometimes i wonder if i made a mistake in the past
and that one of them was the one
but i guess we all deal with that
maybe? but i guess everything happens for a reason
the one will come sometime.....maybe?
sometimes i think i would be better as a nun or something
haha. i wouldnt make a good nun. it wouldnt work
i am so gahladfghljaghf i guess it is time for bed

tomorrow will come sooner that way!!!!
and the jello excursion is tomorrow!
peace out world